1. Uncertainty about what is happening, intended, or required.
2. The state of being bewildered or unclear in one’s mind about something.
Baffled and confused, used and abused for different ends. Confusion envelops me into a dust of haze and smog. It is fuzzy out here and I cannot see where I or the future of this planet is headed. Which way to turn? What thought to think? What to belief anymore? What is this baffled brain of mine but a fart in cosmic time.
“The reason you’re trying to get more money, more sex, more knowledge, more love, more power, more fame, more pleasure, etc, and you can’t seem to get enough, no matter how much you get, is because deep down what you really want is to be infinite. You want an infinite expansion. It’s as though deep down your consciousness realizes that infinity is the goal. But you’re trying to accomplish the infinite through the finite, which will never work. You are like a fly trapped in a windowpane.
Your entire life has been one stifled infinite expansion.”
Anger boils up inside of me, seeping out at the seams, a boiling pot of fuming irritations. I am trying to hold myself together before the seams unravel.
When you suppress so much eventually it will come out of you and can come in many forms.
I want to tear it all down and fight. I want to scream. I want to jump out of a window.
Anger can be channeled into change; this means understanding where that anger comes from and then discovering more about yourself. Usually we are angry at ourselves. Fear is the root of anger. What am I scared of? Everything. Fucking damn everything. Nothing has been the same since two and a half years ago, this doesn’t feel like myself.. Who am I anymore?
“One morning you wake up and realize this world is being run by a pedophile satanic elite who have been distracting you with cheap entertainment, none sense fashion, and a little box that tells-a-vision to reprogram your subconscious mind.
You understand that you have been lied to your entire life, and the world you thought you were living in DOES NOT EXIST.
History is all lies. You’re not an advanced monkey. Energy is actually free. Earth is not round. Every pandemic is a hoax. The tendency for Homosexuality/Transgenderism has been created by design to be highly enhanced and distorted from nature. Abortion is murder. Humans are not the only species of this universe but definitely the least intelligent.
Are you questioning reality yet?
You wake up to pursue your duties, your day-to-day drama, and work a job you don’t love. You dream about a different place, a true romance, a fulfilling purpose, and breaking free of your personal dilemma.
This dream continues to live in your mind, years pass, and before you know it, you’re not 25 anymore…
One fine morning you get out of bed and realize the evil that has been twisting reality, enslaving you secretly, playing you like a fool. At the same time, you thought you were just living an ordinary life, paying bills, paying taxes, voting, and believing you were contributing.
Then it dawns on you. You were just a hamster in a cage, and you were not even allowed to own a wheel.
Now anger arises from within you. A voice becomes louder and clearer and eventually transforms into a roar.” – The Galactic Federation Of Light