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Infinite Expansion

“The reason you’re trying to get more money, more sex, more knowledge, more love, more power, more fame, more pleasure, etc, and you can’t seem to get enough, no matter how much you get, is because deep down what you really want is to be infinite. You want an infinite expansion. It’s as though deep down your consciousness realizes that infinity is the goal. But you’re trying to accomplish the infinite through the finite, which will never work. You are like a fly trapped in a windowpane.

Your entire life has been one stifled infinite expansion.”

Source: https://www.actualized.org/insights?p=43

By The Fire

Warm glowy nights by the fire, the day is done, sleep is near, cosy and warm by the fire’s gift of energy. Archaic times in the DNA of my being gently, so gently, give me this sense of times long go. This fire lights up my life, warmth sending my vibration high. I miss all those moments of time from birth to death of times by the fire. I miss fire. The smell lingers in my memories, I can summon them yet being in the experience is not the same. Fire, oh fire, how I miss you.. I hope I get to smell you once again, just one more time in this exsistence.

The stars are dancing, no one can see, for the eyes of one’s self standing alone outside is the one who sees. I think I see yet I know, I know, that what I know of the known is but a blip, a minuscule fragment of infinity, energy, infinite intelligence, source, love, ultimate, God………….


Anger boils up inside of me, seeping out at the seams, a boiling pot of fuming irritations. I am trying to hold myself together before the seams unravel.

When you suppress so much eventually it will come out of you and can come in many forms.

I want to tear it all down and fight. I want to scream. I want to jump out of a window.

Anger can be channeled into change; this means understanding where that anger comes from and then discovering more about yourself. Usually we are angry at ourselves. Fear is the root of anger. What am I scared of? Everything. Fucking damn everything. Nothing has been the same since two and a half years ago, this doesn’t feel like myself.. Who am I anymore?

Waking Up

“One morning you wake up and realize this world is being run by a pedophile satanic elite who have been distracting you with cheap entertainment, none sense fashion, and a little box that tells-a-vision to reprogram your subconscious mind.

You understand that you have been lied to your entire life, and the world you thought you were living in DOES NOT EXIST.

History is all lies. You’re not an advanced monkey. Energy is actually free. Earth is not round. Every pandemic is a hoax. The tendency for Homosexuality/Transgenderism has been created by design to be highly enhanced and distorted from nature. Abortion is murder. Humans are not the only species of this universe but definitely the least intelligent.

Are you questioning reality yet?

You wake up to pursue your duties, your day-to-day drama, and work a job you don’t love. You dream about a different place, a true romance, a fulfilling purpose, and breaking free of your personal dilemma.

This dream continues to live in your mind, years pass, and before you know it, you’re not 25 anymore…

One fine morning you get out of bed and realize the evil that has been twisting reality, enslaving you secretly, playing you like a fool. At the same time, you thought you were just living an ordinary life, paying bills, paying taxes, voting, and believing you were contributing.

Then it dawns on you. You were just a hamster in a cage, and you were not even allowed to own a wheel.

Now anger arises from within you. A voice becomes louder and clearer and eventually transforms into a roar.” – The Galactic Federation Of Light

Why You’re An Addict

“According to research cited by Stan Grof, about 30-50% of substance addicts (alcohol, hard drugs) are really just seeking a nondual experience.

That’s why you’re doing the alcohol or drug. It gives you a simulated pseudo-spiritual experience of unity. It blots out egoic consciousness. But you don’t know this because you haven’t actually experienced real unity, and you don’t yet understand what consciousness is. So you keep hitting that bottle or pipe but it never scratches that mystical itch.

You got the right idea, but you’re going about it the wrong way.

To get drunk on God, your mind has to be ultra-sober. That’s what meditation, pranayama, clean eating, etc. is for. Your mind has to be attuned to the subtle. But you keep feeding it the gross.

Which is also why 5-MeO-DMT, LSD, and Ibogaine prove so effective for hard addiction recovery. They show you the real deal. They show you the subtle.

Which is why Bill Wilson, the founder of AA, included LSD as one of the most important components of recovery. Until of course the government banned it. Ever since, AA has been de-fanged.

If you’re saying to yourself, “Yeah, Leo, but I’m not a drug addict! How does this help me?” Oh, yes you are! You’re just addicted to something a little more subtle or culturally acceptable. Nevertheless, the underlying dynamic with you is just the same. What you seek is nonduality. Because it’s the greatest thing ever. Nothing else is even remotely close. But you don’t know it yet. You have to take my word for it.”

Source: https://www.actualized.org/insights?p=45