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Bewilderment

  • 1. Uncertainty about what is happening, intended, or required.
  • 2. The state of being bewildered or unclear in one’s mind about something.

Baffled and confused, used and abused for different ends. Confusion envelops me into a dust of haze and smog. It is fuzzy out here and I cannot see where I or the future of this planet is headed. Which way to turn? What thought to think? What to belief anymore? What is this baffled brain of mine but a fart in cosmic time.

Silver Birch: Spiritual Qualities

“Q: Can you say how one can become more artuculate in expressing feelings to help other people?

TRY occasionally to still yourself for a while, to withdraw from all the jangling discord of your world into the silence of your own soul. When you are quiet, passive, receptive, we can come very close for you, for your silence is our opportunity. If you are never still, you set up such a rush of vibrations that they bar the passage and make it almost impossible for us to get close to you.” – The Silver Birch Book Of Questions & Answers

Hitting Rock Bottom

“So… I got to the bottom of reality.

Only to discover there’s nothing there.

But what a trip it was!

A trip so deep, you never quite come back.

Let me tell you…

Everything is made out of itself.

Like a cat unraveling a yarn that ends up unraveling the cat.

A churning singularity, with no beginning or end.

Everything points to itself. Trying to explain itself to itself through itself, slipping, slipping through itself.

Beyond physicality, beyond the universe, beyond death, beyond awareness, beyond existence & non-existence.

Too insane to care about insanity.

Down, down, down.

Into a dimension unknown.

Like a bottomless floor falling through a bottomless floor.

Into a writhing, bottomless void, denser than the center of a thousand suns.

Into the heart of an infinite-headed hydra.

The Godhead.

An infinite-dimensional fractal.

A runaway chain reaction. An infinite positive feedback loop. Drunk with infinite power. Unstoppable!

OH! MY! GOD!

Infinite universes spawned every nanosecond.

Infinite universes inside every universe.

Infinity flipping itself inside-out inside itself. For eternity.

Nirvana, Paradise.

The Holiest of all Holies.

So empty it MUST be full. So full it MUST be empty.

Absolutely substance-less.

Absolutely relative. Forever unable to define itself to itself because it is itself.

It is what it ain’t.

A cosmic circle jerk. So incestuous! Making love to itself for eternity. An infinite orgy.

An infinite human centipede.

A trillion orphans dying hungry on the streets? It’s all GOOD!

Too good to be true. And yet it is!

Alive and creative as a motherfucker.

So utterly meaningless it collapses and supernovas into infinite meaning.

The mindfuck to end all mindfucks because it out-fucks them all.

Everything is nothing. Nondual. No Self. The SELF. ONE.

I am Allah, YHWH, Buddha, Christ, Shiva, Krishna, Shakti, Maya, Brahman, Rama, Ein Sof. The Alpha and the Omega.

Meditation?? Lol

Not consciousness, not awareness. BEING. Nameless, unnameable BEING.

All beings are ONE. Immortal. Untouchable.

Nothing to fear.

Reality is an infinite strange-loop. Death by delicious circularity.

Like looking into a microscope and seeing the back of your head.

An infinite hallucination machine, hallucinating its own machinery.

Software so powerful it’s virtualizing its own hardware.

Absolutely inevitable. More inevitable than a mathematical proof.

The ultimate hero’s journey, without a hero.

Heartbreakingly beautiful. Soberingly beautiful. Too beautiful for tears.

SUBLIME. DIVINE. FLAWLESS. INEFFABLE. STUNNING. IMPOSSIBLE. A perfect miracle.

Irreducibly mystical.

ENORMOUS beyond all measures of enormity.

TOTAL!

TOTAL!

TOTAL!

ABSOLUTELY ABSOLUTE.

The only thing there is, yet the one thing that cannot be pointed to.

Mu.

Everything is understood. INFINITE UNDERSTANDING. The circle is complete.

But no one will ever understand!

Infinite ignorance.

As it must be.

You want the Truth? You can’t handle the Truth.”

Source: https://www.actualized.org/insights?p=42

Psychdelic Visions

“It’s very difficult to describe psychedelic effects to someone who’s never experienced them. But here’s an attempt:

(Above: VERY similar to how mushrooms look at higher doses. The whole room distorts.)

(Above: VERY similar to medium-dose LSD/AL-LAD. I’ve seen tree bark move just like this, with stronger neon colors.)

(Above: I haven’t experienced Breathing like this myself, but probably would at higher doses of LSD/AL-LAD.)

(Above: I haven’t experienced this one myself. But seems in-line with LSD/AL-LAD.)

(Above: VERY similar to recognition of Absolute Infinity on 5-MeO-DMT. The fabric of reality become infinitely recursive. This is how Nothingness/God feels to me.)

(Above: VERY similar to recognition of Absolute Infinity on 5-MeO-DMT. The fabric of reality become infinitely recursive. This is how Nothingness/God feels to me.)

(Above: Very similar to LSD, AL-LAD, Mushrooms, 2C-B at the peak. Although not this vivid at low/med doses. Maybe it would look this vivid on a really high dose.)

(Above: I haven’t experienced this effect myself, but read about it in trip reports.)

(Above: I haven’t experienced Tracers like this myself, but commonly reported on various popular psychedelics.)

(Above: VERY similar to the patterns I usually see on mushrooms, LSD, AL-LAD, and 2C-B.)

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(Above: Similar to very strong LSD.)

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(Above: VERY similar to how I’ve seen pine tree bark on AL-LAD.)

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(Above: Haven’t experienced this effect myself, but people report it.)

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(Above: This one resembles the faint geometric patterns I see on 5-MeO-DMT on the carpet, but in real-life the patterns aren’t so opaque, just a light overlay.)

Credit: PsychonautWiki.org”

Source: https://www.actualized.org/insights?p=44

Silver Birch: Destruction Of The Earth

“YOUR world will not be destroyed overnight. The Grest Spirit, with infinite love and wisdom, has devised natural laws which provide for every facet of being, mighty or minute, complex or simple. The natural laws operate by evolution, not revolution. They ensure that the power of man is restricted. There are things he cannot do. He has a measure of free will, but it is limited.” – The Silver Birch Book Of Questions & Answers